Hello Friends!
I am back in Tijuana, Mexico after a 2 week break to Michigan for the holidays. It was great to spend time with my family and catch up with some friends. By the end of my break I was actually ready to come back here to Mexico and start working again. I guess I got all the time I needed to rest be ready to go again.
One of the things that came up while I was home was what my next year was going to look like. For some reason it feels like every time I go home I feel this pressure to know what my next 5 years is going to look like. It's unnecessary, but all the same I end up trying to plan and figure out my life whenever I have time to do so.
Unfortunately all that planning and worrying doesn't usually accomplish much. It seems like every time I make a plan it some how gets changed at the last minute. You would think that I would learn and stop trying to plan things out and just go with the flow, but I don't. It seems my default is worrying instead of remembering how God is leading me to where he wants me to be. A few years ago I would never say that I'd be living in mexico and loving it. Going to show that if I followed my initial plans that I set up I wouldn't even think of living in Mexico. Yet here I am, loving life and following God.
I believe I wrote around this same time last year (I guess my thoughts go in cycles) about learning to trust God with my future. One thing I remembered today is that God loves me, and wants to see me do the right thing. I could easily say that I did the right thing coming here to Mexico, because I feel so blessed. Though I believe that if I had gone a different direction, while earnestly trying to follow God, I would feel blessed there too. Because no matter what I choose, God is still a good God. If I make a wrong decision He isn't going to make me suffer, He is going to try and lead me and bring me to where I'm supposed to be.
So here is to another year of trusting that God is going to open the doors to where he wants me to be. A year to trusting that if I do make a wrong decision God isn't going to abandon me because I know that he has never, ever done that. A year to enjoying life and giving God my best.
